Help I need somebody Help

OK I'm screwed.
I packed the bag I have and weighed it, around 100lb(50kg)...So that would be two bags.
And I still got all my clothes left and other stuff.
To send a 60lb(30kg) box would cost over $200.
So what am I supposed to do? anyone?
I need Help.

everyone's happy but me.
school's over and i don't feel that happiness like everyone else.
probably cuz their 4 years in the same school is over and i've only been here one.
so i think its kinda sad.
so much things i could've done but didn't do.
nice with regret. love it. heck no.
last concert tonight. that one yesterday was ok so i hope this one's gonna be better.
but sad to say bye to everyone there too.
one exam tomorrow and one on friday, though not really any people i'm gonna miss much.
rather take like the gym exam than choir. though gym took it today so nvm.
anyways, less than three weeks now.
how do i feel? wtf knows.

Sitting in the media center reading on Aftonbladet.se.
One of the bigger news " A swedish man in the military arrested a pirate" yeah so, why is that so much bigger than world wide crises?
Or that the pope got facebook. Wow he's really young now isn't he.
Getting facebook like everyone else.
These articles really makes you think that, isn't there other more important things to write about?I mean ,that the Red wings lost their game is Huge! Just kidding, though there are many much bigger and more important things to write about so people could be more aware of their world.

Metro champs x 3

Last year Kearsley was in the Big nine league, where all the big high schools play.
But since we "only" have aroudn 1200 students we had to move down to the Metro league.
In a way that was good, because now we can actually call ourselves good.
Ex. Kearsley hockey became metro champs.
And so did Golf after 46 year since last time.
And also Baseball.
Last night it was the last homegame in Baseball. I was there and it was my first.
It was interesting and actaully quiet fun.
So warm, but it was sweet.
Kearsley against Fenton.
5-0.
It might have been a second game but I had to go to choir rehearsal for the spring concert next week. Tuesday and wednesday. All choirs together.
Concert choir, Treble singers and a capella.

Gotta go to class See ya!

I asked all my teachers if I have to take the exams or not. And guess what, I only have to take 3 out of 6. And it's the easiest ones too. Okey all of them are easy but yeah. I'm happy.
We played frisbee today in gym. It was a lot of fun, until it hit me in the forehead...
One of the Rose twins were standing like 2m from me and threw it and boom in my forehead. It freakin' hurt man!
They're giving several teachers "pink slip" 33 teachers from 5 schools are being laid off.
Teachers that has been less than 10 years at Kearsley is the ones getting a pink slip.
One of them is Mr. Redfearn. The really good choir teacher pretty much everyone loves.
So it's kinda sad. Though it's not for sure until when it's summerbreak but still. It's tough.
It's because many people get laid off, move, and not as many kids start Kearsley anymore. Then the school gets less money and have to lay off teachers. They get a certain amount of money per student so when it's big losses like this they get less money.
And they have to move PARO to Kearsley. PARO is a building where kids that are failing high school go to make up their work. Some students even wanna go there because they get smoke breaks and it's more relaxed and less people. Not no more it wont. The mess kids will stay in Kearsley in the same building. I'm glad I was here this year...
So who knows what will happen to Kearsley in a few years.

Kenzy kuu

Earlier today I was sitting on Heather's bed showing dad something on the computer.
And next to our bunk bed there's a dresser, maybe a meter high, it's a common place for Kenzy to sit. Also to jump from to my bed, the top bunk. She always makes it. Except for today. She took off but she didn't make it, she fell down on Heather's bed. She was so surprised! Like "I always make it what happened now? :o" cute little crazy cat :)

Jeeeeerky I'm gonna miss you when i'm not around no more!
That chewy substance of yours. YUM.
Expensive of course...And pretty much extinct in Sweden.
What's up with that??
For real now, how will i survive?
I guess can buy elk jerky, but that's Far away as good as you beef jerky.
I realized that someone like oh i don't know a nosy person as my mom (:P) could think that i'm talking about a guy or somethin', but no. I'm actually talkin' about jerky. it's wonderful and addicting. People, export jerky to Sweden so I can survive! And please lower the prize...

a broken radio

Since I've been here many Americans have asked me "What's the biggest difference between America and Sweden?" There's many differences, and the biggest one is hard to tell.
And I guess it defers from one to another. And from state to state and city to city. To give a general answer I would say the food.
But to give a list I would say, the food, school system, eating habits, what people do on their free time, transportation - also a huge difference, treating of animals, prizes etc etc.
I'm sure I could find a million things. So to mention a particular one would be to hard of a task.
Many people will probably ask me the same thing when I get home to Sweden. My answer will remain the same, "So many differences, it's difficult to decide".

While on the subject, going home.
Probably not the most popular answer people want to hear, but I'm not sure that I want too.
I'm aware that I don't have an option. If I had the a choice, what would it be? Stay or go home?
It will be so different. Will it be a good different to be back in "normal" ?
Just the feeling of feeling like this is strange.
Of course I will enjoy to come home and see everyone after being apart for so long and do things I've missed out on. Ex. going to places I regularly visited when I was younger.

On the same time I will miss the new friends and family I've gotten throughout this year. The simple school as well, and the huge school spirit that we don't have in Sweden.

Sports in school etc.

I removed my countdown because evertime I saw it I got sad so I just had to remove it.

And the question constantly on my mind is, Have I done everything I could this year? I've done a lot , but there is many things I could've done. But instead of thinking "could've done" I try to think "have done" to have a more positive view on it.

There has been many rough times, very rough. But also many good ones.

If you think about it , a "normal" year in Sweden is like that as well.

Good and bad times. The roller coaster ride.

It might be just a teenagers life, somehow I doubt that. I believe that most people got up and down lifes. Not only us teens. If I'm right or wrong I can't say now since I haven't come to that part of my life yet. Soon enough I'll be there. It will go fast and suddenly I'm 30 and sitting here blogging again.

Mathilda